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Wednesday, July 18, 2018

Our journey

May 13, 2016 Our journey started a lot like anyone else's... We met, fell in love, got married and wanted to have babies. Even at our young ages(I was 22 and my husband was 24)... We were ready, or as ready as you could ever be! We've talked names, nursery themes, and even how we each of us want to parent. Everything seemed perfect and like it would just be so easy to achieve our dream.

I started doing research on the whole TTC process, cut things out of my daily life and out of my husbands. I started tracking ovulation by taking my Basal body Temperature, and taking prenatal vitamins. I was almost certain that I would be pregnant the first month we started trying... Because that's what we both wanted. Well ignorance truthfully is bliss... I was unaware of the road we were about to head down. Unfortunately not everything worked out to be that way for us... We are now 7 months and a pregnancy loss into all this. I know 7 months TTC isn't very long, it takes healthy couples at our age at least a year to conceive. But to us it feels like forever. I can't help but think if I would have gotten pregnant the first month how different our lives would be. We would be celebrating 7 months of pregnancy, having a baby shower, setting up our baby girl or boys nursery. Packing our hospital bags. We would be ready. Instead I sit and think about all the things we could have possibly done wrong... Was our timing off? Did we not do it right? Did things we both did in our past cause this? Is it me? Is it him?

At this point, we have no diagnosis. For the simple fact that unless I have 3 miscarriages in a row, or try for longer than a year everything is "perfectly fine".  Nothing but routine tests have been ran. Why making someone endure 3 pregnancy losses before providing help is ethical, I'm not sure but I don't make the rules. So to our knowledge I am perfectly fertile and so is my husband. But the fear of the unknown is what scares me. As far as we know, we are able to conceive our own child naturally.
Now down to the whole reason I started this blog. Fertility is something that is usually kept private, which makes perfect sense. It's personal and can sometimes be embarrassing to share those sorts of details. But for me it's a little bit different, I am a very open person! I'm not afraid to talk to anyone about anything. I don't want people to who have recently come into this journey to feel lost. Because that's how I feel. I know I have people to talk to, and I know there are people who are there for me. But there is only so much someone who doesn't understand can say. I want people not feel ashamed or embarrassed. 1 in 8 couples struggle with infertility... 1 in 8!! That is a lot of people! If it wasn't such a hush-hush subject, awareness could be spread to women and couples who think they are alone in this. So if you are struggling with TTC, infertile, or know someone who is... You aren't alone! Seek out help if you haven't already. And remember you don't have to do this alone!

-Mrs. Lindsey

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